Friday, January 14, 2011

Change of Plans.



I have a habit of over analyzing things and waiting for them to happen; just in case they aren't the best things to be worth analyzing over.
I dont want to be like this anymore; there are toooooooooo many things I have pondered on and thought long and hard about the consequences on- too many for my liking....

This is where I am today, if I were to act out what my heart truley wants, I would not be listening to my mind.
I have been more absorbed in what my mind is telling me to do, not living in the now and always dreading on the past or what may happen in the future. There is no need for this anymore. I dont want to be that person. I dont want to wait - I want to make.

I will start studying in February again, it feels as though I havent studied in years... actually yeah I havent studied in years. Its scary, but I know if I put my heart and soul into it, I can do it.
I have been surrounded by amazing, beautiful people who often give advice, yet what they don't realise they are negative and breaking me down. 

I want to travel this year with my wife/significant other/best friend/housemate - we want to go to Mexico (MARGARITAS) this is all we have ever wanted; to travel together... So I need to get a second job to save $$$ but the realty of it all is; I will be studying as well as working - plus the second job, gym, social events, etc etc. I may burn myself out? Well not necessarly - As humans we are meant to sleep 8 hours a day; thats 16 hours spare. Surely I can cram study/FT work/PT work/life into these spare 16 hours, if I cant get 8 hours a sleep every night due to an important deadline - who cares? Its what we do.. I want to go away, I want to become the next top Interior Designer, I want to succeed in life. AND if succeeding in life means sacrifice, then thats what I am going to do.

Remember to live in the now. What is happening now?  Who are you with now? Nothing else matters, because you can't control anything else. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL NOW!

x

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