Do you ever want something so bad that when you have it you don't necesarlly want it anymore.
But then when you don't have it, you want it again? This is a PAINFUL re-occurance with me. But its going to change. I can feel it changing every moment I take a breath.

I enjoy asking the universe for things, good things...
Every single person on this earth has the power to create life - so why not ask for the things you want - whether it be a better job, house, friendship or love? It can be anything!
If we put our mind to absolutely ANYTHING - we can achieve it - I must stress how important it is to be optimistic.

Being optimistic has changed my life in a big way, not only has it affected the way I live my life, it has changed my mood and definately anialated my previous negativity and anxious thoughts.
Mediating with like minded people has been a huge success. I only surround myself (when able to) with these sort of people, yes these "sort of people". There is no point being around negative energy when you are beyond that. It is important to remember this, especially when you are facing your cycle for the month or confronted by a hard decision.

I am letting go of my past, not thinking of the future - just focussing on the now. What am I doing now? How am I feeling now?  Who am I seeing now? These questions need only be the questions to ask.
Why do we dwell on the past or pray for a better future. You have no control over this. Your life has already been mapped out, its a matter of time till people become more aware of this.

In saying all of this I reiterate that I have a habit of wanting cake and eating it as well. I get something and I want more, or I dont want it anymore because it feels dated.
I feel love and love feels me. I wake up everymorning and realise that I am truly blessed to be alive and have the people who are in my life around me.
I know that I will make it through what ever hurdle that may appear on my path. It is a long process in becoming enlightened but it is happening - I feel it.

I still ask this question though "Can I be satisfied when I have what I want?" this is all apart of getting to know yourself and your wants. Wants are thoughts created in your mind. You do not need these things. They are not ESSENTIAL to life. So why must we "want"? We want to feel good about ourselves, we want the best out of life, which is great.. Im not saying not to want these sort of things. But how do we go by in order to make ourselves happy - do we hurt others in the process? Would we rather put ourselves before others?

I am going to succeed in life.